R.I.P Zaini

And again
Ignore the small wordings.
Death is no laughing matter.

Remember my earlier post about the guy Zaini?
I woke up this morning,
and four out of five messages to me was telling me he's gone, Forever.
.
..
...
I guess, deep down I knew this would happen.
Even though I didn't stop wishing for a miracle for him.
I wanted so badly for him to at least wake up for a while,
and to be able to say any famous last words to his parents, and friends.

[ignore the small wordings again]
We need Free Hugs to make this world better
better yet,
make ourselves feel better too.

Strange isn't it?
He's not my closest friend.
Definitely not a guy I'd choose to text with, or call up just to have a chat and so on.
He's only one small part in my life
Yet I felt sorrow.
I felt anger, and really really unhappy.
I felt weird to even think about listening to upbeat songs.
I felt weird laughing today.
But I definitely don't feel weird blogging about these.

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start picking it
Every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

Hopefully,
everyone who know about this will learn something.
Time is precious.
You'll never know when will it be your last day, last moments with your love ones.
Its time to take life seriously
and to tell people you love them occasionally
do the things you've always wanna do
and giving out free hugs.
I'd definitely do that as long as people try to be more open-minded about hugs.

Those who are darn emotional right now
Go talk with someone about it.
Remember,
you're not the only one who had lost someone from your life
everyone else had lost him too
whether as their son, their classmate, their friend, their relative, their partner-in-crime, their joker, their laughter, their boyfriend [maybe?], their admirer.
I don't know, as I said before, I don't him that well.
My point is,
You Are Not Alone in this.

At least he's rest in peace now.

So maybe, we shouldn't mourn about it too much
He's fine now people
He didn't have to go through the horror anymore

The funeral is going on now.
Since I can't make it,
I thought it'd be more appropriate for me to dedicated this post to him.

Some people are afraid of death.
Not me, at least, I don't think so.
I'm just afraid of losing someone.
But no, when it comes to my time,
bring it on.

Kiki and I had a talk about how we want our funerals to be like
I don't wanna be buried
Burn me people lol
no seriously,
and scattered my ashes everywhere.
I don't want anyone to cry at my funeral
I want everyone to be laughing while exchanging ridiculous stories about me and so on
Make it a party that I had LIVED =D
I'm serious by the way.
Dead serious.

And if your plan fell our of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be careful who we let fall out of our lives
So when we long for absolution
There's no one on the line

I'm gonna live my life to the fullest alright
I ain't gonna let small problems taking over my life
I'm gonna stop emo-ing over lil things
I am so gonna laugh all day long and never regret anything

I'll be out there and doing whatever I know I can do to make my life worth living
I'll start studying harder not because of SPM, but for myself
I'll give Joyce, Ash, Ki a hug each time I see them.
I'll continue giving my brothers and parents a hug whenever I feel like it.

I'll stop being such failure and make myself proud
I'll stop giving thoughts about second thoughts
I'll stop grumbling the whole day just because my morning didn't start off well
I'll stop hesitating telling people I love them as well

Feeling Emo?
Help the others then by communicating
You might actually start to feel better yourself.

Death. Death. Death.
People die everyday, anytime and anywhere.
There's nothing we can do to stop it.
Be thankful you're living and still breathing.

Hmm.
Its raining.
Perfect weather for a funeral.
May you rest in Peace Zaini
I swear,
I'll never forget you.
And I hadn't heard enough of the compliments you give every time you see me.
Hugs.
Love you.
Love you too reader =)

P.S So tell me. What are the things you wanna tell him but you haven't got to?? I'll post it up if you let me. Stories about him will do too.

P.P.S Mine = Zaini, thank you for being a part of my life. You seriously know how to made my day. Even though I don't really believe in it, but its nice to hear someone telling me I'm pretty all the same.


From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie