Where she can finally meet her SHIVY and the rest, for she was sick the day before!
Sadly, things does not turn out as she had expected..
No one was there to greet or hug her.
Sorrowfully, she watch silently when her sister's friends were there,
Running towards her sister and start chatting up with her sister.
Wishing how her friends were there too.
QT wasn't there, she knows it earlier..
So she planned earlier to be with her friends every.single.minutes.or.seconds today..
She knows she had missed the fun her friends had earlier, she was determined not to be left out again at all!!
She sat down on a bench, stared ahead silently.
She feels like crying, screaming, or even killing herself.
Things weren't that good since Monday. So why does she feel that everytime she tried to make it up, things are stopping her?!
Why?WHy?WHY?
She felt abondened, yet that sounds ridiculous,
They wouldn't abonden her at all! Would they?
Maybe they did it on pupose, to teach her a lesson.
Maybe they are doing this to show that how important they are to her!
She gets up, and walk alone..
Faking a smile every now and then when people she knows gave her a friendly nod or smile.
Faking a happy face, faking laughters when she's talking, faking giggles to get into the mood (but unsuccessfully)
She know she deserve it, and she accept it.
Right now, all she wish is to tell Suha, Hor yean, Irene, Vern ern, and Yi xiu how much they meant to her and will always be. *hugs*
*ding*
Someone wants to chat with her, oh, it's one of her best mate.
She sullenly reply, preparing for the worst.
Her mate apologize, explaining, and saying stuff like,
"It's okay to have new friends...just don't forget the old ones"
and
"we're not blaming you ler..we never did!"
What does she mean by that? Is she trying to tell her something?
Was she saying that she's those kind of people?
She can't take it anymore, her eyes are where the tears came from.
Throughout the conversation, she felt tired, miserable, it's all too unbearable!
Her mate gotta go, asking whether she could call her back.
She replied 'yea sure'
On phone, her friend was pleading her not to be sad.
Saying that it wasn't her fault..
At that cue, tears sprang out from her eyes again.
She couldn't answer, she couldn't speak, without letting the other know that she was choking back her sobs.
She ran into her room before her tears shown under the lights on her cheeks..
She doesn't want to worry her friend again...Not now..not ever..
Hopefully, things would go well tomorrow.
QT ain't going...hope they still wants me..
And everything will be the same..or better..
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Just like old times....
P.S as Ve said, "people change, things go wrong, but remember well, that life goes on..."
From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie
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