Feels Darn EMO lately

Hmph..I don't usually like the way EMO peeps talk, or thinks, their actions.
Reading back my Diaries, I remember being EMO last year.
Damn EMO weii..

E at
M y
O rgans

That's what EMO stands for xD *Suha or Lynnie invent that, smart people ;)*
Feels EMO, Moody, Sad...lately?
I missed my friends..Hean Tee..Vern Ern..Suha..Hor Yean..Irene..Yi Xiu..Previn..Beng..Jia Jin..Jess..
I haven't talk to them for so freaking looong! *somehow got the feeling like they are avoiding me T_T*
Emo Suezie...pfft...

I MISH MY FRIENDS ALOT!! I'M GOING MAD SOON!! ARGH!!
Where are they...?

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Just went through my stuff, and read a few pages of my diaries..

"Memories flash back"
About TMG...the most.
We're now friends...*believe it or not*
Don't worry, am 100% sure that I won't fall for him again.
I got SCW, and he got his xD
Chatting with him, can see that he is still his old self, but yet, there's something about him that changes. He is more serious in relationships already, I congratz that gal of his xD

"Memories flash back"
Friends fighting, argueing, stubborn, misunderstandings. *uggh*
I hate those times the most, yet cherish those moment when we apologize and make it all up. *that's what make our bond STRONGER*

"Memories flash back"
Times when I'm having the time of my life.
Times when I cried my heart out for those misunderstoods situations.
Times when I feel like standing up and shout all I might.
Times when I just want to hug everyone I loved ever so tightly.

P.S My mum and I totally forgot about my guitar class..Oops!! xD

P.S.S ARGH!! Haven't bought Sue Ki's prezzies yet!! *S.O.S*

P.S.S.S For God's Sake, let me know you guys are reading all these!! *yesh, right now I demand some attention here, is that a problem?*

P.S.S.S.S The answer is YESH Waynie....xD

From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie

Tagged by Jazz

Instructions:

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box or anyway that he/she has been tagged.

1. What is it that bothers you the most?
that I can't watch Little Nyonya...stupid Channel x(

2. What is your most favourite thing/s to do?
writting, dancing, acting, playing music instruments

3. What's making you so happy/sad/angry/desperate right now?
choosed Sad. That I can met him for one day nia!! T_T

4. What is your ultimate wish?
having chances to be close with him, and being famous for acting x)

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Saw Chao Wei <3

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
hell no? I need money always...kekez!

7. Are you afraid of pain ?
no..just bear with it and gain experience *smiles*

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
talking to DYT face-to-face!! *screams*

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
erm..depends? usually no

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- a listener
- generous
- friendly

*but not that close to her lolx*

11.What is your 6 most passionate things at this moment?
- diaries
- dream book
- piano
- computer/laptop
- camera
- guitar

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
he? bad? O_O no way

13. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
food *am smart xD*

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
hepi. money can't buy or gives hepiness everytime

15. Who are you thinking about now?

DYT & SCW

16. How do you see yourself in 5 years time?
hmm..i will be 20 by then..
AHA!! I can date DYT!!
*will gotta be as famous as him 1ST*

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
my personalities xP

18. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
my dreams

19. Use one word to describe yourself.
wacko~!

I tag..*you lucky ones =D*

Waynie
Shze Chen
Karen
Juney
Hean Tee
Vern Ern
Nicole
Michelle

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Done the tagging thingy...finally! xD
Currently looking for colleges already..
I know what I want know, I FINALLY know what I want to be in the future.
And I can easily imagine the reactions I'll get from others,
or at least...what they will be secretly thinking and having doubts *even a little* that I can succeed.

I believe in myself, I know I can.
Whether you all are supporting me or not, I-don't-give-a-damn
And to those that truly support and believe in me
I THANK YOU SOSOSO MUCHIE

Special thanks to Waynie *the BEST big brother ever*
Thank YOU Waynie, for helping me and supporting me.
Love ya xD

By the way, was thinking whether should I play Maple again?
Or not? It's been months since I even went into that game.
It kills time, and fun when you have a group of friends that you know well, playing together and PARTEE!! x)

Am doing a Survey right now,
It's about my hair *xD paiseh*
Short hair? Or Long hair? Which one is better or more suitable?
Want answers!! Opinions from you all will be truly appreciated by ME.

Gotta go!! Been busy during holidays as well...WTF? =='

P.S ARGH!! Chirstmas is coming SOON!! OMFG haven't bought anyone's presents yet!! *screams*

P.S.S Sue Ki's birthday is coming soon!! Take note people!! Its on 2nd of Dec!! x)

From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie

Continue??

Ishh...there's so much to tell larh..
How am I supposed to start?
Some are personals though x)

I'm happy to say, that this unfortunately event brought us all cousins, aunts, uncles, ALL semua closer than ever.
I never enjoyed the stayed there this much before! *seriously*
I admit, we cousins weren't that rapat before, but now? Sworn Cousins!! *wooooooooot!*

Perhaps this news had let us realized that we must cherish those who are still around us.
*smiles*
I love you Grandpa!!

Guess how much money we fold for Grandpa?
We need a lorry to load all the money!! *NO KIDDING*
My Grandfather is darn generous, he loves giving out money to schools, orphan's home, and more.
He told us before, that he wants to open up a bank when he's in Heaven.
That's one of the reasons we went crazy folding money for him *I enjoy folding!! xD*
My Grandpa is well-known around his village, I've been told that he had been nominated as the Head of the village once!
Conclusion?
He.Is.Famous *gosh am so frigging proud of him!*

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Am cleaning my room and stuff nowadays. Gosh, so much memories when I just take a look and go through all my notes, diaries, letters, and gifts!
*sniff sniff* makes me miss my primary long lost friend. *he is a guy*
*sigh* I'm gonna be sixteen next year.
Omigosh, SIXTEEN!!
I'm getting older and older ==' *but just like everyone else ahahaha*
No more fifteen, no more fourteen, no more thirteen.
SIXteen. That age sounds so mature and all..
But will I be as mature as my age? xD
That's for me to know, and YOU to find out!! *wakakakakaz*

Hope to meet all my friends soon, got so much that I want to tell them.
People that I'm missing right now:
- WAYNIE *big bro, i hearts you!! <3>
- SHIVYS *my dahlingz, BFFL, Fristers*
- MARQUIS CLOVE *BFFL!! Miss you frigging LOT*
- JIA JIN *Best Friend!! Hearts you as well!!*
- EVELYN *Sweetie! Hugzz*
- CHAO WEI *Soulmate, Best Friend, Boyfriend. Kisses and Hugs!*
- MY JOHOR'S, KL'S, TAIWAN'S, SINGAPORE'S, PENANG'S COUSINS AND RELATIVES *HUGS*

Okay...I admit I sound sappy, but oh-who-cares? x)
Gotta go!!

P.S Crap!! Am so crazy about Dai Yang Tian right now!! Icks! I will HUG those who agrees that he is HAWT and HANDSOME! and understands my crazy reactions xD

P.S.S Crazy about "The Little Nyonya" too!! OMFG

From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie

Little Nyonya

OMFG!! I finally found the website I want!!

http://littlenyonya.mediacorptv.sg/

Everything about Little Nyonya is in there!! Do check it out people!!
Click this link to see which HAWT guy I was mentioning earlier that I saw~

http://littlenyonya.mediacorptv.sg/bios_2.htm

He looks even better when you are close to him!! xD *swooooon*

P.S My first celebrity crush *ahahahahaha*

From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie

Grieving, Crying, and Moving On

This is what we people called, The Circle Of Life
People died, babies borned. We cry, we laugh. *okay the last part was crappy*
What I was trying to tell is, people had to leave, sooner or later.
And those people around them, must learned to let them go.
Letting them go is the hardest part of all, but when you move on..trust me, they will be happier to see you that way.

Packing my clothes, I found that I don't have dark-or-dull-that-doesn't-even-allowed-a-little-bright-colour-clothes as much as I thought. *crap, I need new outfits*
Leaving for Johor, my heart was wailing, moaning, complaning.
I don't blamed my dear Grandfather for leaving, in fact, I'm happy for him that the battle is over, and he can enjoy his life in somewhere else better.
It's the last day I saw Jia Jin, and maybe, some of my other friends.
It's been more than 2/3 weeks since I saw Chao Wei too!

Arriving there, I wasn't prepared to see the coffin in the living room. *yesh, the house is HUGE, got ten rooms and a huge living room and more*
I wasn't prepared to see everything reaaranged already.
Wasn't prepared to find my grandfather lying in the coffin, looking so peaceful, yet hard to recognized him.

Dear Diary,
Unable to blog, I decided to write here. On 12/11/08, my loving Grandfather is free from the pain. I never know how he died yet, does he passed away in his sleep? Does he died when he was reading newspaper? Or what? This is one question that I had never got the courage to ask...yet.

Last night, I arrived at Johor around 10p.m something. And reacher Macap at 11p.m or 12a.m *forgotten*

My mum burst into sobs when we step into her childhood home. Grabbing some jocksticks, she fell on her knees, crying really hard, and prayed. Seeing her in this state, I feel like crying as well. But somehow, I forced myself not to, and I succeed.

What Waynie said was right, whoever that left people behing wouldn't want to see them crying or being far too upset. It would make them feel like it's their fault. And so, I was determined not to cry anymore.

We fold money for him, talking at times, and even managed to laugh a little to lighten up our moods. So what if we laughed? I bet it will make Grandfather happy to see us like this.

I slept at 3a.m something with my other two cousins, having a terrible headache cause of the smoke. I can't stand it.

The next morning, I saw Blackie and Brey that my Grandfather owns. They look tired, sad, and moody. My heart went out for them, their master is gone, forever, who will talk to them like he does ever? Who will pat their heads and praise them once more?

I spend some time with them, reading their minds and answering them. No one else really care about them like I do, only ME *again*

I miss school, my loving friends (Hean Tee, Vern Ern, Hor Yean, Suha, Irene, Lynnie, Sin Beng, Yi Xiu, Ashleigh, Jia Jin, Michelle, Nicholas, Waynie and more) and my sister (Sue Ki <3) and Chao Wei.

Hope they won't feel too sad or what. I hope they still have fun right now. Gtg!!

This is what I wrote before, not personal or what lolx!
Anyways..things happened. Curious?

People believe, that when someone died, they will be a moth or a butterfly.
Right?

I seriously believe this legend already. A few days before we buried Him.
A moth flew around, and finally end at his favourite Grandson's right leg there (my cousin brother).
And it stayed there, not wanting to leave him.
For the whole night through all the praying!!
Until finally, they gently placed that moth into the house that we will burn for Grandfather.
And it stayed there till it died. *omigosh*

And a few days later till before I came back, we still saw a butterfly or moth around the house everyday. *it's seriously true, I totally believe, how can I not?*

There's more events that happend the year I borned. I'll only write it in the next post.
I feel stressed writting all these...
I will continued...I promise...

From: Darkling Lovecraft aka Suezie

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